I really should've known.

It's summer! Yay!
Except it's hot. Boo.
But no work! Yay!
But nothing to do. Boo.
But I might go to Korea for a summer camp job! Yay!
But it's going to be monsoon season. Boo.
I'll get to see friends and family and people that I miss! Yay!
Except I'm still waiting to receive the documents for my visa application. Boo.
Well in the meantime, I can watch more episodes of netflix! Yay!
Except I finished all the seasons of RuPaul's Drag Race. Boo.
Oh well, my favorite drag queen is going to be in San Antonio in August! Yay!
Oh wait, she's going to be there on a Thursday night and I can't miss work. Boo.
Well in the meantime I'll draw and write and read books! Yay!
Ergh, I'm feeling uninspired. Boo.
So I'll go visit my parents! They like me. Yay!
Wait, they have cats and I'm allergic and that makes vising miserable. Boo.
Well, I'll relax and hang out and have fun in my hometown! Yay!
Oh heck, who am I kidding, I miss having excitement in my life. Boo.


I didn't realize that settling down would be so freaking boring, ya'll. I mean, I really should have thought about it. When I chose to come back to Texas to get my teaching certificate and start being an adult, I forgot about all that being an adult entails. Do you know what being an adult entails? Going to work so that you can pay your bills so that you have a place to sleep so that you're rested for work.
You know what I've been most excited about lately? Eyeliner. I just bought a bright pink eyeliner from Urban Decay the other day. And Pandora Boxx. Because she's just so darn cute. Not career, not money, not art, not hot boys, nope. Makeup and drag queens. Oh, and I live in Texas so I should be excited about summer rodeos and horses or whatever but nope. Makeup and drag queens. Oh, and my 90's music station on Pandora.

I mean, though, I'm not complaining because I've got it pretty good. I have a job, people. That's pretty difficult. I have a 97% passing rate on my state standardized tests with a 43% commended rate. I am in the process of adapting an Oscar Wilde book for the One Act competition. I am going to try to finish my novel this month, too. And sew. And do origami. And yoga. I want to run in a 5k in November. My interests are varied, people. But I was sitting with a group of people and listening to them talk the other day and I guess I was grumpy but I felt like the conversation was just... uninspiring. I need some inspiration. I need a muse. I will see if Daniel Henney will volunteer.