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So I took a nap before going into play practice this evening and perfecting my British accent (it's really just that good, ya'll) and that was a mistake. Mistake. Because now I am not sleepy and just sitting here, with my laptop on my lap and my pandora station playing and my toes are cold because I'm being dumb and not actually turning on the heat in my apartment except for ten minutes in the morning because it's COLD, but not that cold.

Well, it's pretty cold. For me.

My classes this week have gone pretty well. I think the kids are heartened by the prospect of vacation, or they can see that I'm just as likely to go nuts on them and give them all extra homework and noodle whipping as not. I thought teaching Kindergarten was a trial to my patience, having all those 6 year olds trying to desperately to get my attention, and getting stabbed with a pencil, or having to listen to a kid tell a five minute story about how he has a puppy that runs in circles.

Actually, that was pretty cute.

But wow, I am learning to take advantage of the five minute passing period between classes as time for me to close my eyes and meditate briefly on life and my place in it and how everything will work out in the end and how I really should have worn shorter heels, but it's too late now and I am going to just have to deal with it and at least they make me taller. The days have started magically growing longer and longer until it's 8th period, and all I can do is prop my aching feet on my desk and listen to podcasts*. I realize that it's just me being tired, and going for so long without some time off, but it's disheartening all the same, to feel so negative about everything the past few weeks.

Of course, I should be used to it, being a negative person, and hating everything, and kicking puppies**, like I like to do. But I'm not. It's sad.

And horrible.

And.. um.. bad.

And other stuff.





*I learned about Jewish pirates today, it was interesting.

**Not really, puppies are adorable and I like them a lot, I just dislike (almost) everything else.